This week is National Carers Week in Australia, 2.65 million unpaid Carers share the burden of caring for a loved one, I count myself among the privileged many. No matter how strong we are, sometimes our moments spill out of our hearts, this is my moment this week.
A Carers Sorrow-Filled Heart
It matters not now, how much you care,
How you wish,
How you want,
Or how you worry.
It’s out of your hands & beyond your control,
As you bear witness in silent despair.
No matter the agony and pain you may feel,
It cannot measure or compare to their shame.
And our heart swells with sorrow,
& our eyes burn with tears,
As we breathe silently
In defiant resistance
We pause in the moment,
& completely fall down
A million small pieces,
Lay smashed on the ground
We pick ourselves up,
We stand tall & stay Strong.
But we’re only pretending to be brave.
We hold it all in,
While we shatter inside,
Today is the same as tomorrow.
The struggle grows greater and graver each day,
As my head falls, into my hands.
& I process & ponder the cost of my tears,
As my bones groan, with the weight that they bear.
Why must we carry the love of this world
In a bucket that's filled with great holes?
And we fight and we wrestle,
To show them we Care,
As they struggle to breathe,
They are hopeless & scared.
& we snatch the cold moments,
When no one can see.
The cost of our Caring,
Counts the loss of our dreams.
& we swallow the tragedy,
One moment, One day,
& we rise, & we do it again.
I always will carry,
The yolk of this Care,
Although it may break all my bones.
I rise up, with each morning,
& thank God for my lot in this world.
If only, I could change,
But one thing today,
My son, I would give you it all